From the future

Well in the immortal work of "OK GO" on their humorous treadmills, "here we go, here we go, here we go again."

Meaning simply that I am a man of beginnings, of fast starts and bold ideas, with little follow through, few habits, and less discipline, leads me to a life of started journals, initial entries into blogs, diaries, or quiet time notebooks, i have the first chapter of 3 books written and saved an various harddrives that hold the remains of computers past.

So here's a new computer, i'm sitting at a new desk and my new job, and deciding to not start a new blog but rather enter another entry into a very old blog, which without having re-read yet, i assume has not been updated in several years.

Crash course in Billy Clem's life:
Important dates-
- 2-23-1981 Birth
3-9-2003 - Married to Jenna
1-27-05 - Abby is born
10-01-05 - Moved to Folsom (first full time ministry job)
10-31-06 - Olivia is Born
2-23-07 - (birthday and fired from first full time ministry job)
5-01-07 - become stay at home dad, most time spent with Abby and Olivia
9-01-07 - Started at Mars Hill Church (first full time ministry job at a church i loved)
12-15-07 - Mom Died (all holidays especially christmas and thanksgiving will not be the same)
12-15-08 - Let go from Mars Hill (left paid ministry)
2-16-09 - Started Job with Combined Insurance in Wenatchee
08-07-09 - -Anneka is born
9-01-09 - left Wenatchee, promoted by Combined
01-01- 10 - promoted by combined again
10-15-10 - Resigned from combined
11-3-10 - Started job with Sterling Insurance
11-30-10 - entered this blog entry.....

Ok so those aren't all that important some of them are, some of them are not.
But for some reason, my life is defined for the most part by what i have done vocationally, since so much time and energy goes into whatever job you have it naturally is a part of who you are, and by my family. I'm ok with being defined by my family, I love all my girls, though a boy would be a nice addition to this branch of the Clem Clan.
As for work....
I love it, and I hate it,
It consumes my thoughts many night i lie awake thinking about it...

When i was in minstry i struggled with treated it too much like a job... my pastors became bosses instead of pastors, and when i spoke to them like pastors instead of bosses i got myself fired....

In the insurance world it's easier, it is a job, you smile, you expect people to act in their own self-interest, you expect to be lied to, you expect politics and back-stabbing at work, and then when people are kind it's pleasantly surprising. You don't expect them to act christ-like....

I miss the expectation of christ-like behaviour from those i work with. I miss putting my 50+ hours each week towards ministry instead of towards making profits for a company that i have absolutely no ties to long term because as we have established i'm a starter not a finisher.
And if i'm going to put the pain and sweat into diciplining myself into being a finisher, and into being the guy who's going to to something for 20 years faithfully, i want it to be preaching the gospel of Jesus Christ and not the selling of Medicare Suppliments to the elderly.....

I miss preaching, i miss teaching, i miss sitting down with someone and being able to prey with them and point them to the scriptures instead of talking about premiums and benefits....

I'm going to be 30 in 3 months. I want to start again, i want to start over, i want to start a church. I want to start a ministry. But more than the things that I want to start, I want to start something that I can learn how to finish....

something important....